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ERGH. [ December 28th, 2006 8:40 pm ] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | Hey DJ - Suburban Legends ] So, the year is finally coming to a close. It's all gone by veryyyy quickly and I'm somewhat sad about it. A lot of things have happened this year. Some good, some bad. But it's always a win/lose situation. I've been really, really depressed lately. It's so low it's not even funny. I contemplated suicide a few days ago. I seriously ... just ... wanted to do it right then and there. I hate getting that feeling. But I really can't help it anymore. There's just that LITTLE thing in the back of my mind that screams "YOU'RE WORTHLESS." A lot of people don't help the situation, either. But whatever. Life sucks like that. It loves to kick you in the face just as everything seems to be going right. There are SO many things I hate about myself that I just CAN'T seem to change. I want to break away from my old friends and start anew, because a lot of them--- aren't making things any better. I mean, yeah. I love my really close friends. With everything. I can't even IMAGINE being away from some of them. But, I have to deal with constant BULLSHIT almost EVERY DAY and I'm getting REALLY fed up with it. If that means I'll have to be a stray for a while, until I find a new pack of my own, FINE. I'll do it. Just as long as I get away from everything that's causing me to act like this. (I'm not saying they're the only reason, because depression runs in my family. I believe both my mother and her mother attempted suicide at one point?) I hate bitching, but I really have to say everything that's on my mind. It's either this or resort back to my old solution to things like this, which I honestly don't want to get back into. I'm sick, too. I may be getting Pheumonia, which can be fatal if not caught beforehand. HOORAY. Please, no "OMG NO SUICIDE PLZZZZZ IT ISN'T THE RIGHT THING TO DO!" I know. I've heard it all before. I've been called on my suicidal tendancies before, and I know the drill. "IT'S A PERMANANT SOLUTION TO A TEMPORARY PROBLEM". I LOVE MY BITCH RANTS. THEY'RE FUCKING AMAZING. If you have some smartass remark to this, than fuck you. I don't care. Cram it up your ass. Anyways, yeah. Aquabats concert in January. Whoo. 3 haunted by your face

[ August 9th, 2006 5:55 pm ] I haven't uploaded anything in /ages/. Anyways .... yeah. D: Just ... saying hi, I suppose. I'M NOT DEAD! YAAAAAAY~ Lmfao. Er. Yeah. D: 2 haunted by your face

Wassup peoples!? [ March 1st, 2006 6:35 pm ] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Lost Heaven - L'Arc~En~Ciel ] Just to let you all know, I'm NOT new here. AT ALL. All of my accounts ... well, let's just say I'm not good at remembering my own password, hmn? Anyways .... uhmn .... hi. :3 Nice to meet you all? And, I shall actually write down my password this time. Ah-hah. o_x' 1 haunted by your face

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